[drawn to the blackend sky as it turns blue.]

Suprising News....
Written @ 3:47 p.m. on 2005-01-13

Latley everythings been going really good! Like everyday I've been comming hoe from school really happy!

This is probably gonna be a shocker but I'm over Jared for good now. I reead his Live journol and he said he didn't like my personality. At first he wantsed to get to know me but when he spent time with me he didn't like my personality...thats prolly becuase when I hung out with him Friday night I like couldn't breathe,or talk or anything. I got so nervous around him! I dunno I think imaybe its a good thing I'm over him. I felt like I changed for him. Like the way I dressed and te music I listened tio and everything. But its ok. I think hes the most I've ever liked a guy...I slowly began to get over him but then when I seen him it chenged...I know for good now I'm over him...

Sam is having a party tomorrow and I got invited. Its everyone from Ice skating so it should be fun! Theres like 40 people comming I guess, so I'm gonig with Shirleen. Then I'm prolly sleeping over her house and Saturday I'm going to get my hair done and go shopping. Then either next weekend or the weekend after
Shirleens staying at my house because her mom is going out of town. Yay!

But its weird after just reading that journol entry in his Lj I seem awkwardly happy...Usually when this happens the person is devestated...but I'm not?

<<3 MonIca

*FIRSTS* [First job]: babysitting

[First screen name]: mlssa10566

[First funeral]: my grandmothers

[First pet]: Moonlight

[First piercing/tattoo]: Ears

[First credit card]: nope

[First Kiss]: 8th Grade

[First one that mattered]: matt

[First true love]: not yet

[First enemy]: megan harris [First big trip]:uhh...Ohio for a wedding for all i know?

[First concert]: Nickleback & 3 Doors Down

[First musician you remember hearing in your house]: prolly AC/DC

[First room color]:blue i think?

[First grade teacher]: Mrs. Hevren

*LASTS* [Last car ride]: Comin back from tops

[Last magazine you read]: cosmo girl

[Last card game played]: Texas Hold em'

[Last call]: Gina

[Last kiss]: few months ago

[Last library book checked out]: heh

[Last beverage drank]: Orange Juice

[Last food consumed]: Carrots

[Last time showered]: tonight

[Last CD played]: Hawthorne Heights

[Last annoyance]: My family

[Last soda drank]: Diet pepsi

[Last ice cream eaten]: Mint Chocolate Chip

[Last shirt worn]: Etnies

--BASICS-- Time started: 8:29

Full name: Melissa Jean May

Nicknames: Jeannie Missy Liss Issa Mel ect...

Birthday:02/27/90

Where were you born: Buffalo, NY

Zodiac sign: Pisces

Height:5'6"

Weight: No clue bout 130?

Hair color: Blonde

Eye color: blue green changes

Ring size: 8

Skin type: slightly tan

Blood type: lol not sure

Grade: Freshamn in high school

Siblings: Mike and Susan

Tattoos: nope

Piercings: Ears

Hobbies: video games, hopefully skateboarding, computer, sleeping

--FAVORITE...-- Color- pink

Food- Fries

Book- Forever- Judy Bloom

Tv show- Full house

Website- purevolume

Radio stations- 103.3, 98.5, 92.9

Artist- Hawthorne Hieghts

Cd- Three cheers for sweet revenge

Song- Razorblade Kiss

Music group- ?

Music type- anything cept hard rap and bad country

Day of the week- Friday

Month- July

Season- Summer

Holiday- none anymore

Shampoo- Herbal essences

Conditioner- see above

Number- 21

Phrase- umm not sure

Store- Pac Sun, Zumiez, Media Play, AE

Weather- warm and slightly over cast or full on thunder storms

Restaurant- Olive Garden

Channel- Comedy Central abc family

Teacher- Mrs.Measer

Weekend activity- being with friends

Hangout- Shirleens house

House color- brick or log cabin

Animal- cat, dog

Flower- Rose

Guy's name- Landon

Girl's name- Blaze

Board game- Monopoly

Party game- Screw the Dealer

Story from childhood- cant remember

Body part- neck

--HAVE YOU EVER...-- Been on a train- yep

Been on a plane-nope

Been in a car accident- 2

Caused a car accident- nope

Run into a wall- many times

Burned a potato chip- ...possibly

Almost burned the house down- hehe yes..

Smoked- yes

Been drunk- yes

Broken the law- yes

Kissed someone of the opposite sex- yes

Kissed someone of the same sex- yes

Frenched an animal- nope

Made out- yes

Had cyber sex- no

Gotten engaged- no

Had an online relationship- no

Been Rejected by a crush: yes

Been loved- don't think so

Made yourself cry to get out of trouble-hehe prolly

Cried in public- prolly

Cried over a movie- yep

Fallen asleep in a movie theater- no

Given someone a bath- nope

Been to a boarding school- no

Been home-schooled- no

Lost a valuable item- yes

Bungee jumped- no

Skied- what?

Met the president- no

Met a celebrity- no

Gotten a cavity- unfortunatly yes

Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch- yes

Made a prank call- no

Skipped school- yes

Faked sick to get out of school- yes

Purchased something that you knew didn't fit- why would you do that

Fallen from a tree- yes

Broken a bone- nope

Sprained anything- yeah

Passed out- no

Made yourself pass out- Well At alexis' b-day party these kids knew how to make people pass out and it worked on me

Been to disney world- no

Been to a theme park- yes

Said i love you and meant it (not to a relative)- no

Made a model volcano- no

--PAST-- What did you do yesterday- school, homework, slept

Memory you miss the most- Middle School and last summer

Something you regretted after it was done- to many things

--THE LAST...-- Song you heard- Evanescence-Everybodys Fool

Cd you bought- Chrystal Method

Thing you said- Looking for the dinner i didn't eat

Time you cried- Ealier today

Movie seen in a theater- Blade Trinity

Thing you ate- Carrots

Person who called- Gina

Nail polish shade worn- glittery with lil blue and silver circles

Time you showered- tonight

Person who complimented you- Shirleen

--AT THIS MOMENT...-- What are you listening to- Hawthorne Heights

What are you wearing- Pj pants & depew basketball t-shirt

What are you thinking- Shirleens a bitch LoL!

What are you scared of most- Loosing one of my best friends

How many people are on your buddy list- 200

--FUTURE-- Occupation- Forensic Pathology

Marriage site- Somewhere pretty, but different, the beach

Honeymoon- Somewhere warm and sunny

Place to live- near the ocean east coast or down south

Kids- 2

Car- Either my brothers saturn or Guppies cavalier

What are you doing tomorrow- School and going to Sam's party

Will politics ever be truthful- no

--FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR...-- Yellow- Sun

Red lipstick- A pretty Girl

Socks- fuzzy

Cowtipping- hick

Greenland- Ice

Iceland- glacier

Red- Blood

Rose- The perfect Guy- any guy who gives me roses will have my heart

Rooster- 5 am

Taxes- no new clothes for Melissa

Bill Clinton- yea yea yea

Whipped cream-...yummy!

Lollipops- 2 year old

Dreams- clouds

Love- broken heart

Penguins- adorable

Death- me in 50 years

Spoon: fork

Junk mail- hate hate hate

Dairy- charlaps

Panties- cute and colorful!

Your father- annoying

Pizza- my brother

-ARE YOU...(at this moment..or usually)-- Happy- kinda

Sad- yea

Bitchy- kinda

Crazy- yes

Messy- yes

Mad- at myself

Slacker- yes

Nerd- sure

Bookworm- no

Selfish- sometimes

Giving- yes

Obsessive- about some things

Violent- no

Calm- sometimes

Mellow- not usually

Caring- very

Untrustworthy- nope

Loyal- yes

Patriotic- yea

Perverted- no

Colorful- yes

Artistic - sparsly

--MISCELLANOUES-- What color is your jacket-- Which one?

Do you shave- of course

What size is your bed- queen

What color crayon would you be- hot pink

What are the last four digits of you phone number- 0713

Feelings on abortion- against

How long does it take you to shower- 15-25mins

Who do you trust the most- gina

Is cussing a necessity in life- prolly

How about coffee- i heart coffee

What something you cant live without- friends

What time did you fall asleep- bout 11

What do think about death- really can't wait for it to come

Why is the sky blue- blue has the shortest light wave that we can see and there fore travels the fastest and is diffused the most.

What is a good trait about yourself- being a good friend

What do you always think about - love

How do you react to change- depends What is your opinion on love- it seems like such an amazing thing... I've ever been in love though so i wouldn't exactly know

Can you afford to lose weight- yes 10-15 lbs

Time you finished: 9:08 Pm

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