[drawn to the blackend sky as it turns blue.]

Jakes Party
Written @ 8:08 p.m. on 2005-04-25

So yeah I had quite an EVENTFUL weekend!
Friday Dave broke up with me and I was in tears almost all night and everything so I went and slept over Shirleens to get away and everything. He said he still liked his Ex-girlfriend or something...I dunno.

So Saturday I ended feeling alot better then I told Jake I didn't really wanna go to his party because it woulda been awkward with Dave there and he said Dave wasn't going so I said I'd go then I found out Dave found a ride with Phil and would be there but Jake really wanted me to go so I said I would. So I left Shirleens and went home and Summer cameover and we got ready together and I wore my belt buckle that i got for my birthday. So Shirleen showed up around 6:30 and we all went to Jakes. The whole way trhre my mom kept telling Shirleen and Summer over and over agian not to let me even look at Dave tonight because of what he did! So I got out of the car and everyone's like Oh My God! She Came!!! So I felt loved there. LoL! Then we went inside and I didn't see Dave at first then Summer told me not to turn around so I didn't and for the first hour Summer said he just kept looking at me and everything. So about an hour after I got there he came up to me and asked if we could talk...So I told Summer and she really did try to hold me back! So I talked to her and she let me go and we prolly talked for an hour. He called himslef every name in the book apologized more then a million times and told me what happend with his Ex. So his friend Phil came up to me and told me he never wanted to break up with in the first place and that things with Racheal had gotten out of hand and he didn't want to hurt me so he did what he thought was best. So he asked me back out again and I couldn't say yes at first...So i know Shirleen and Summer both talked to him. So he knows if he screws up again hes dead. So the Party was amazingly fun! Everyones also still completly clueless on how Dave pulled off getting me back too! Did I mention Summer and Chad broke up and Sumemr is crushin on my buddy Josh now? Cute couple!!! They did a little more then Spin the bottle at the party.LoL!

I'm really scared though. I really like him alot...Im just scared. If he did it once...he can do it again and I really don't want that to happen because I was DEVASTATED. I couldn't beleive it either. I really hope he doesn't hurt me again...I really truley like him.
So Sunday me and Summer went shopping and like everyone from the party was there and I got to see Dave for a whole 10 minutes...I was so mad. My mom forbade me to talk him...which I just can't do.... I really have to tell her we're going back out...and I really hope I made the right choice....

But other then me being scared I had one of the most amazingist weekends ever.

this |time| imperfect