About Me
My name is Monica, Im 15 years old,I live in Buffalo,Im Single at the moment, I skateboard and i am attepmting snowboarding.
I Love
gina,friends,music,kittens,guitar,
skateboarding,AFI,alcohal,sleeping,armor for sleep,partying,chocolate...
I Hate
chad,spiders,drama,rap, hip hop,
hilary duff,homework,alarm clocks,
nail polish that chips in 2 days, feet...
So I haven't updated in forever so we're just gonna kinda skip all the whateverness.
So Im laying in my bed earlier and I just started crying...For no reason just started crying! That's never happend to me! So I started thinking about all the shit going on in my life that I've been jsut shoving to the back of my mind but really shouldn't.
So for starters I went to the Armor for Sleep / Boys Night Out concert last night. It was amazing. But it got me thinking. I dunno why but I was just upset...I almost cried when they played My Town...no idea why either! I just turned and hugged Dave ands stopped myself from crying. But other then that the concert was amazing!
So on the Dave subject. I still have this huge trust problem with him. Definatly not gonna lie. And not trusting him is causing me alot of stress becasue I really do like him...but blah... He even told me last night all the girls hes cheated on and who it was with! He does act more grown up since the last time I dated him,and hes always telling me im the best thing that's ever happend to him and hes so lucky he got me back and everything. But still....I dunno.
So I'm 16...Yeah thought it would be fun. It is!..But its not. I should really get a job so I can start saving up for a car and insurance and all the other stuff I want. But even right now I don't have the time for a job! I made the Lacrosse team...and really I don't think sports is what I want to be doing. It takes up every week night meaning no more shows which sucks becasue i love going to shows! I mean even at armor last night I thought I was going to just pass out! But Seriously I like to play Lacrosse but not as much as they make us! I definatly would rather be playing on like an out of school team. I don't get along with any of the girls on my team, especially my sister. She def doesn't make it any easier. I'm like completly opposite of all the girls on the team. Blah I would so much rather be playing guitar hanging out with my friends acting stupid and having fun.
I really wanna get my permit and start taking Driver's Ed to...and I really can't do that becasue of Lacrosse...We have practice every night for 2 hours and Driver's Ed is every tuesday and Thursday for 2 hours. And I'd rather be learning to drive then play lax!
Ahh! I don't know I have so much shit to figure out and I don't even know where to begin! I know the person I want to be...and Im not being that person. I really need to start doing what I want to do and stop compeating. I know what I want...Now I just need to work to get it.