[drawn to the blackend sky as it turns blue.]

Waking back up :-)
Written @ 7:20 p.m. on 2006-03-20

So yeah the whole thing from last Sunday kept me out of school for the entire week! I just could not get my self up to move and it really got my mom worried so I had to go back to the doctor and get tested for mono...which came back negative but i kept getting worse and I still don't feel back to my normal self so i get to go back again! I should just move into the doctors office...save my parents the trip.

I missed Lacrosse all last week and I can't play this week. Blah...I'm kinda liking not having it. I go outside and screw around with my stick and everything but thats just me having fun. Sad ting is i lost more weight last week from not eating then I did in the two weeks of playing lacorsse...explain that one? Yep I'm lost. My mom told me to see how I feel this week after I get all ym work caught up and I can go back next week if I want...Still in the debation process.

Boyfriend...Yep kinda sucks...Him and Jake came over Friday night while I look like shit with not make-up and my hair a mess from not doing it for a week...They both told me I look good without make-up..Yeah kinda scary when a GUY tells you that. But yeah..Back onto Dave..I think he's been lying to me about what hes been doing. I'll talk to him one night and its oh yeah im so tired im gonna shower and go to bed...I talk to him the next day and hes telling me how he only got 4 hours of sleep becasue he was out with friends...Ok...I'm feeling kinda ditched here. LoL ..Yes I'm not feeling good...Not exactly making me feel any better when your telling e your hanging out with 4 girls I don't know! I'm considering breaking up with him...Actually no...I'm listening to Ricky who says he's not a good person and just has a bad feeling about him. But thats Ricky...even though he has a girlfriend...Probably shouldn't listen to him Haha. But yeah definatly scared about the Dave thing...Matt and Jake keep reassurring me that hes crazy about me, he loves me, he would never do anything like that again...Blah Blah Blah. Boys Suck :-)

Summer's turning 16 a week from today and her party is Saturday. This is exciting! We can take Driver's Ed together! Haha! Ahh We're going to some go-kart place type thingy? lol i dunno. But Friday night if Dave goes to Rochester like he says hes going to then I'm gonna try and hang out with Leanne and if not her then Shirleen called dibs on me haha!

Ozzfest ticket = 80$ heck yeah and my mothers going...haha nothing swweeter then headbanging with your mother and her best friend to Disturbed, Ozzy, and System of a Down lol!

I'm definatly feeling better...but still not back to my normal self yet....

I wanna go to prom :)

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